In John 16:24, Jesus stated, “Ask and you will receive, so that your joy may be complete”.

Frankly, I don’t want to tell you this story but it’s late and I’m tired and I don’t really have anything else left in my arsenal to write about tonight, so here we go.    

I confided in my bestie that I secretly hope this blog leads to more than my faith, but a career.  If only you knew how slowly I typed that sentence.  The past few years I have discovered the joy that writing brings me and have often thought about how I could make a career out of it, but never really knew the path.  When I had the idea to write for 40 days for Lent, I started thinking maybe I could have it all.  A dream job as well as a dream relationship with God.  If nothing else I expect that having a better relationship with God will lead to a happier, more productive life in general. 

My friend and I will often use the phrase, “Put it out in the Universe,” as a way of encouraging each other’s positive imagery.  I also believe that our biggest obstacle in achieving our dreams, is simply believing in ourselves.  Nonetheless, more on the concepts of shame, vulnerability, and guilt later.      

If I can be as bold as to believe that God is leading me in achieving my dream, it is the following passage my mind keeps repeating. 

“But I came to learn that God never shows us something we aren’t ready to understand. Instead, He lets us see what we need to see, when we need to see it. He’ll wait until our eyes and hearts are open to Him, and then when we’re ready, He will plant our feet on the path that’s best for us…but it’s up to us to do the walking.”
― Immaculee Ilibagiza, Left to Tell: Discovering God Amidst the Rwandan Holocaust

Kind of a “Help me, help you,” proposition from God.

So there, now you know my dirty little secret, my ulterior motive in all of this.  Let me showcase my clever writing under the guise of religious purity. 

But still, if you never ask, the answer will always be no.  So therefore, I will be bold, put it out in the universe, risk embarrassing myself and see what happens. 

Go ahead, plant my feet Lord, I promise I’ll do the walking.